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Sorry I've been MIA

 Wow, a new blog post, and just when I'm sure everyone forgot about my blog. So I guess a life update is in order. Will there ever come a time where the majority of my blog posts are not life updates because I took too long in between posting? Probably not. I started an internship at the House of Speakeasy! I love it so much although it has kept me way busier than I anticipated. I've started planning my course schedule for next semester and realizing that next semester starts my senior year *shocked face*. I can't believe it; it feels like just yesterday I was spending my first night in a dorm. Anxious because I didn't know anyone, but also so confident that I could handle anything this city threw at me. Oh, how wrong I was. 

Something that has been on my mind lately is obviously the future. I am the most anxious person and as my future approaches faster and faster, I just can't calm my worried mind. I have a general idea of what I'm going to do once I graduate, but it's entirely based on how my life is now and if my life were to change, I don't have a backup plan. I recently saw a quote on Instagram that said "We often spend time worrying about the future and forgetting to enjoy the present we used to spend so much time worried about." That really put things into perspective for me. I remember being in highschool and dreaming about going to college in the big city and then applying to colleges and being so anxious about if I would get in or not. And now that I'm in college living in this big city, I'm so anxious about what I'm going to do after college. I just need to let it go and enjoy where I'm in life right now. So I'll be trying to do that from now on. Wish me luck

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