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2021 recap

Every year I find myself thinking about how I can't wait for this year to end and how it was such a terrible year. 

Every year. 

Why is that? Why is it that every December I find myself reliving only the lows and never the highs? I have my own theories, but for now, we'll chalk it up to the human condition. 

Instead of doing that this year, I'm going to make a list of all the great things that happened in 2021.  

1. My beautiful niece was born 

When my nephew was born I seriously thought that I could never love another person the way I loved him. Now I have a niece and I've discovered that having nieces/nephews is essentially like having your own kid that you don't have to deal with all of the time. It's amazing although I do wish she didn't live quite so far away. It's having all of the good parts of a baby with none of the bad parts. And since I don't live in the same state I'm not available for free child care whenever they need it. 

2. Finding Lonely Ghost 

Lonely Ghost is a brand created by Indy Blue that I am obsessed with. I wish I could buy everything they put out, but they are a bit pricey. Their message is great, it's creative, and I love any small business. 

3. Not celebrating two years with my boyfriend 

I started this post in November, and at the time the good thing was that I had spent two years with my boyfriend but then we broke up a week before we made it to two years. Which sucked really bad, but I honestly think I'm doing so much better without him and I think in some ways he was holding me back. I wish him nothing but the best (unless he's not reading this in which case, fuck you), but I am happy that the relationship ended. If you've been reading my blog for a while then you know that we've been having problems and it was weighing on me for a while. 

4. Turning 21 

This is pretty self-explanatory, but I will say that buying alcohol or nicotine in NYC still scares me because they can never find my birthdate on my Ohio ID and they stare at it for so long which causes me to babble nervously because I worry they think it's fake and I don't know how to prove that it's real. 

5. Going to Texas to see my niece be born and where my sister and her husband live 

I actually really enjoyed Texas even though it was hotter than hell. The atmosphere is great and I could walk around without a mask and not get dirty looks. 

6. Joining twitter (lol)

Okay so I had twitter about two years ago when I was a leftist, I drastically changed ideologies and started tweeting a lot of right-wing shit which brought me a ton of hate so I deactivated my account. Becky convinced me to redownload it so I could immerse myself in conservative/populist twitter and I do actually really like it. I feel like I learn a lot while also being entertained. About 70% of tweets go over my head, but it's okay. 

7. Finishing my last fall semester of college 

This still hasn't sunk in yet and I'm going to freak out when I actually have to graduate and get a job and be a real adult. 


I feel like every year has been a throwaway year lately like I have nothing to show for them. Sure, a lot happened but I don't feel like I really grew or changed in 2021. I don't have a lesson that I can take away. If anything, I think 2021 taught me to be okay with not necessarily being productive. I just wish I had realized that before I signed up for six classes and two internships for my last semester. I honestly don't know what made me think that I could do so much. It just stresses me out that this is my last chance to take classes and do homework and study things that interest me before I'm stuck in the real world. I am so committed to not being one of those adults who just accept that life is 98% work and no fun. While I don't really subscribe to the line of thinking of "find a job you love and you'll never work a day in your life." I do think that there are ways to earn a living without compromising your happiness. I just haven't found any yet. A guy told me that you can earn a living through freelance writing so that's my backup plan. 

I wanted to make this post so much more organized and thought-provoking, but I am just burnt out by 2021 and I don't want to think about it anymore. Thanks for reading and I know I say this in almost every post, but I'm really going to try to post more consistently in 2022. Let's hope I didn't just jinx myself. 

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