May 18
Quarantine is the worst. In my almost twenty years of life, I've never experienced something so draining. I really picked a stupendous time to start doing something that requires a constant flow of ideas. I'm hoping this gets easier. Today was my first day back in Ohio. I'm originally from Ohio so I come home every break from school. It wasn't too bad actually. I typically want to rip my hair out pretty much constantly when I'm home. I feel more stable this time. I'd like to attribute that to my boyfriend, but I know I had the strength to stabilize myself the whole time. I just needed someone to tell me I can do it. This is basically going to become a public diary if I'm not careful. Honestly wouldn't be too upset with that though. At least then I have something to write about. Haven't gotten a job yet; I have to call one place tomorrow so wish me luck with that. I sorted through my childhood bitty baby stuff today. It had me pretty nostalgic to be honest. I wish I could have my friends with me at home. I like being home, but I hate being alone here.
May 19
I walked my dog at my mom's house a little today. She's a cute, little puppy, but she's old. Her name's Libby. I love her so much. My other dog, Beatrix is at my dad's house. She's a seven month old golden doodle. She's so cute as well and so fluffy. I got both of them recently. Beatrix was adopted a couple months ago and Libby came into the family with my mom's boyfriend. I always wanted a dog so having them both is a dream come true for me. The only bad part is that my parents waited until I was going to college two states away for most of the year. I'm reading more which is great. Currently I'm rereading Soul Surfer; it's one of my favorite books and movies. I also picked up two books from my brother's house, "Glen Beck's Common Sense" and "If Democrats had Brains, They Would be Republicans". Obviously a bit controversial, but I've been reading strictly left leaning books for years now so I figure its time to give the other side a chance. I'll be sure to provide a thorough review of the books once I finish them.
I'm so bored during the day and yet I still forget to do the important things I need to do; my irresponsibility has no limits. I also just want to go to sleep earlier and earlier in the day. For instance it's 7:30 now and yet I'm yawning and struggling to keep my eyes open as I type this.
I did get a babysitting job with one of my sister's childhood best friends. Her baby is the sweetest and I'm so excited to see him again. So I have money coming my way through that at least while I wait for a job. And of course I'm still collecting unemployment and that is a substantial amount with the extra covid relief.
Well I'm going to go ahead and end my second post here. I don't really have much else to say and I don't want to become someone who drones on and on with no substance. Though I fear I'm already there; don't tell me if I am. Hope you're enjoying this shit show.
Quarantine is the worst. In my almost twenty years of life, I've never experienced something so draining. I really picked a stupendous time to start doing something that requires a constant flow of ideas. I'm hoping this gets easier. Today was my first day back in Ohio. I'm originally from Ohio so I come home every break from school. It wasn't too bad actually. I typically want to rip my hair out pretty much constantly when I'm home. I feel more stable this time. I'd like to attribute that to my boyfriend, but I know I had the strength to stabilize myself the whole time. I just needed someone to tell me I can do it. This is basically going to become a public diary if I'm not careful. Honestly wouldn't be too upset with that though. At least then I have something to write about. Haven't gotten a job yet; I have to call one place tomorrow so wish me luck with that. I sorted through my childhood bitty baby stuff today. It had me pretty nostalgic to be honest. I wish I could have my friends with me at home. I like being home, but I hate being alone here.
May 19
I walked my dog at my mom's house a little today. She's a cute, little puppy, but she's old. Her name's Libby. I love her so much. My other dog, Beatrix is at my dad's house. She's a seven month old golden doodle. She's so cute as well and so fluffy. I got both of them recently. Beatrix was adopted a couple months ago and Libby came into the family with my mom's boyfriend. I always wanted a dog so having them both is a dream come true for me. The only bad part is that my parents waited until I was going to college two states away for most of the year. I'm reading more which is great. Currently I'm rereading Soul Surfer; it's one of my favorite books and movies. I also picked up two books from my brother's house, "Glen Beck's Common Sense" and "If Democrats had Brains, They Would be Republicans". Obviously a bit controversial, but I've been reading strictly left leaning books for years now so I figure its time to give the other side a chance. I'll be sure to provide a thorough review of the books once I finish them.
I'm so bored during the day and yet I still forget to do the important things I need to do; my irresponsibility has no limits. I also just want to go to sleep earlier and earlier in the day. For instance it's 7:30 now and yet I'm yawning and struggling to keep my eyes open as I type this.
I did get a babysitting job with one of my sister's childhood best friends. Her baby is the sweetest and I'm so excited to see him again. So I have money coming my way through that at least while I wait for a job. And of course I'm still collecting unemployment and that is a substantial amount with the extra covid relief.
Well I'm going to go ahead and end my second post here. I don't really have much else to say and I don't want to become someone who drones on and on with no substance. Though I fear I'm already there; don't tell me if I am. Hope you're enjoying this shit show.
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