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Sorry I haven't posted in a while

I don’t have wifi so I’m typing this on my notes. My boyfriend went back to New York today. I wrote a poem about how I’m feeling. The first few days are always the worst. I miss him so much and no matter how hard I try, I can’t make time go backwards to when we were together. My dog isn’t even making me feel better. My nephew is here with me and I’m still feeling shitty. I’m reading a book called “How to be Happy”, but it’s not a self help book. It’s a poetry and prose book. It’s not making me any happier though. I hope it gets easier soon. And that time passes quickly so I can see my boyfriend again. 

I quit my college’s pre law society. I was getting bullied by members who didn’t agree with my political opinions I hate using the word “bully”, but that’s what it is. I made me feel like I was in high school again. Like I was insignificant and weak and powerless. So I’m starting a Turning Point USA chapter. My friends don’t want to be involved though because they’re discouraged with the political scene at my college. I understand why, but it makes me feel discouraged. This is going to be harder than I thought it would be. I can’t gibe up though. I really think having this organization at my school will help other kids feeling alienated from their peers because of politics. I hope that no one has the same experience that I did. I guess I’m just feeling discouraged on all fronts right now. Thanks for reading. 

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